The sun is risin yet i still aint sleepin, my mind's stuffed and i can't think straight. I just don't know what to do, afraid of regrets and missed opportunities. My life has never belong to me, it's been someone else'. It belonged to my parents, belonged to a friend, belonged to a lover, It was never mine.
I've always hated myself for being like this, having zero stability, assuming myself as a free spirit when actually i was pretending to be whatever they want me to be. For once, I know i had to choose for myself and today the time has come. But then again, I'm scared, cuz i'm not sure what this is, is this really what i've always wanted or is it just another mind tricking game that spins my head around convincing me that i want this.
Life is full of choices, the choices we made, we can't take back, it's pinned down in our heart and our memory-lane. One wrong choice changes everything, if it's a big wrong choice that you just cant hide from, then You're Screwed. So some people just started to invent the word "Fate" and "Destiny"
Fate and Destiny has always been my friend, they were never nice to me, yet i considered them every time bad or good thing happen, hoping one day they will obey me. Classic mistake, They never do.
Fate is just a word created to make people surrender, the power of this word is so strong that youngsters turn into homeless beggars we saw everyday down the road with a big cardboard saying 'I leave it all to fate'.
What difference them from the real "People" is another word with a slight similar pronounciation "Faith". Faith are those that succeeded to the top, when you have faith you become a winner like Taylor Swift, like Mr. Obama. They are what they are today cuz they had FAITH. simple as that.
I'm done pretending, It's my turn to make a choice. Whatever choice i make is my fate, but this one is another kind of fate. My life is mine, I will not leave it to fate.
I decide my fate, I decide my destiny.
Monday, June 20, 2011
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